I moved out here to Oregon orginally to distance myself from the people, places, and things that had almost destroyed me.
Only to find out that the laws, institutions, and mentality was even more...we'll use the word antiquated...than things were where I had come from.
However, never one to shy away from a fight I took a different tact this time around.
Rather than going stait into the heart of the beasts as had been my previous way of doing thigns I chose to focus my efforts on learning and teaching.
Learning of the area and it's natural world while teaching, by example, hopefully better and more open ways of thinking and approaching people and world.
The abuse as a child that I suffered I've largely come to peace with but still find it difficult to sort through many of the events surrounding it has been difficult because of sealed records and sealed lips.
The family that tried but did no
t understand. And a mother that is...was...I'm not really sure anymore...one of the most skillful shade throwers I've ever met.
When I was younger I thought those sorts of looks of disgust and barbs were just normal.
But as I grew and learned, and distanced myself from those things and surrounded myself with genuine people that...no, those things were not healthy and only normal in certain situations.
At the end of the day though, the only thing I can really hope for is the motivation to keep writing, to keep developing my story, and hopefully to find a way to sell some of these stories...true, fictional, and a bit in between...to be able to find a safe living situation again.
My name is Jack.
A truth I accepted in myself a long time ago.
Robert is just the name on paper to keep the financials and other things in order.
I am the last Wizard because my family had many people that have thrived and profited off of the mentality of white supremecy and if I have anythign to say about it there will not be another in my family line after I am gone.
So I am the last.
I will work to dismantle the power structure created around white suprmecy and hatred.
But I will also be the first, the First Son, the first Wizard in a story that is yet to be told.
I will admit that some days, some days, it is hard and I question everything around me. Including myself.
When I was younger I thought those sorts of looks of disgust and barbs were just normal.
But as I grew and learned, and distanced myself from those things and surrounded myself with genuine people that...no, those things were not healthy and only normal in certain situations.
At the end of the day though, the only thing I can really hope for is the motivation to keep writing, to keep developing my story, and hopefully to find a way to sell some of these stories...true, fictional, and a bit in between...to be able to find a safe living situation again.
My name is Jack.
A truth I accepted in myself a long time ago.
Robert is just the name on paper to keep the financials and other things in order.
I am the last Wizard because my family had many people that have thrived and profited off of the mentality of white supremecy and if I have anythign to say about it there will not be another in my family line after I am gone.
So I am the last.
I will work to dismantle the power structure created around white suprmecy and hatred.
But I will also be the first, the First Son, the first Wizard in a story that is yet to be told.
I will admit that some days, some days, it is hard and I question everything around me. Including myself.
And even though I no longer of the cloak of anonymity to keep me safe, or the resrouces of those I'm hunting and holding accountable to work with I still try.
I still breath my fire to warm the hearts that needed.
I still speak my truth, to those that need to hear it.
Stay Safe out there.
