In my last post I talked about what I do for fun.
Let me talk about what I do as an obsession.
The other day I posted my notes on an equation I'm working on.
Been working on it since...
Actually.
I know exactly when the concept struck me.
I was sitting on the porch, smoking a cigarette when I was 19? I think.
Not a 100% certain when exactly.
I just remember sitting on the porch on a cool evening very excitedly animating cosmic bodies movements when my hands as a friend equally interested corrected mistakes I was making.
Then the equation struck me like a bolt of lighting.
How to proof it and what observations needed made.
I didn't quantify it until almost 20 years later.
Since then I've been digging through archives and books trying to find the math that fits the model.
not trying to shoe horn things in, but laying the model over existing ones to see which ones fit.
Like a piece of tracing paper over an incomplete picture and trying to fill in the missing pieces.
Connecting the dots, quite literally.
My note taking and computation method I developed in grade school.
Scribbling out "random" shapes and coloring them in.
When in truth I didn't know that maths could match my thinking.
Each stroke a note.
Each point an upstroke.
Like a metronome.
The colors and positioning giving it context.
I could go back and run my fingers or the tip of my pen back over a line from point to point and like muscle memory I could rehear the world around me when the line was made.
Quote it.
It scared people because I could parrot back things verbatim, often imitating the speaker with the accuracy of a tape recording.
I'm a bit out of practice now a days.
At the imitation part because I sit in silence more often than not and don't do my vocal exercises like I should.
So let me break down the equation I'm working on and what it means.
The thing that a lot of people get wrong in their astrometric calculations is trying to solve for G.
Gravity.
The thing is that Gravity is in every equation.
It's not a factor or a function.
It's the equal signs.
It's the fulcrum on which everything else is balanced.
That's why people can't "solve" gravity.
Because it's hiding in plain sight making all of the other equations work.
So let's break down the first function of the equation.
C=D-R
C in the equation E=MC...shit forgot how to make a square on here.
C = the speed of light.
Our constant.
D = Distance
A function of speed and time.
R = Resistance caused by particle collision and wave disruptions by gravimetric forces.
R is most commonly represented by the Delta in launch equations.
Now for the scribbles in my drafting.
One of the observations/proofs for the equation is Gravitational Lensing.
Represented in my notes by the diamond next to the G.
One of the observations that I concluded based on Hawking's model of time.
Each stroke around the pieces of the equation like a tick on an abacus each point a place holder while testing the variables as they're dropped into the equations.
If you've ever seen me walking through the a grocery store you'll see my fingers ticking rapidly.
I'm counting in sign language.
Using my hands as an abacus.
Calculating the prices of what's in my cart v.s. what my budget is v.s. what's on the shelf.
I'm a Librarian.
I can scan an entire set of shelves at a glance and see what books are out of place and fix them in seconds.
I love it.
It's very zen.
Shelving in the kids section is actually harder than an adult section.
20 kids books to 1 adult book on the shelf.
Volunteers used to get mad at me because I'd sort an entire cart of books in a couple of minutes.
"Hey, stop taking my job."
Says an older woman volunteering as a Shelver so she didn't have to sit alone in the house where she lost her husband.
Apologies ma'am I'll try to stay at my desk, but I get restless and need some brain bleach time too.
So yeah.
That page I posted and was questioned about I did so on purpose knowing that it would either irritate someone classically trained or get a troll trying to rage bait.
Either way I needed the interaction to help me organize my thoughts in a way someone else may understand.
Like I said.
Rough draft of an equation I've been working on for almost 3 decades now.
Stay Safe.
